Shirley Grace

DIARY OF SHIRLEY GRACE
mother of Aimee Gruar
27 of July 1995

My annual mammogram last week showed another small area of calcification which has appeared since last time, a year ago. I was pretty shattered and grateful to have dear Aimee's company. I am not as devastated as I was last year as I have already confronted the issues involved and have made some significant changes. I have started on the parasite cleansing program and will do a fast when it's completed as well as a no meat, no dairy product, no wheat, no tea or coffee diet.

AIMEE
This was when she decided she'd had enough of the medical profession and I think lost all confidence that they were actually able to do anything for her. (she) refused to have another operation, said she I had enough of being chopped up,' and wasn't going to do it any more."

DIARY OF SHIRLEY GRACE
mother of Aimee Gruar
Friday 8 October 4:30pm 1999

Looking through the open door onto the deck from my bedroom. The cabbage tree fronds are gently turning, the red of the flame tree flowers are blotches in the over all green of out there, the chooks scratching beneath my window. Jess is tired, they strut past her, teasing her. The sea is still loud. Last night and this morning it rained heavily into the happy earth. I think of the things newly planted in the garden, the potatoes and lettuce. Here I am, flat on my back since about a week ago. The pain in my hip becoming so intense on meeting gravity when I stand up, that the desire to go horizontal again is overwhelming. I do not know what is going on, other than there is obviously some kind of block at that point.

AIMEE
She wanted me to just say, if anybody asks, that "she's having a bit of a challenge, but she's feeling fine, never felt better." And while she was still letting me know she was running every day on the beach and she still had lots of energy, I didn't see too much of a problem.